Hello friends, do not fear I am alive and have not completely spiraled downwards to the point where I can't get out of bed (although I was heading there for a bit). My last post was kind of bleak but here's the thing: I am a complainer. I love to complain. If there were prizes for complaining and procrastinating I would at least be in the running if not walking away with a trophy. I complain about little things; some of my favourites are "I'm tired," "my hip hurts," "I'm cold," "I don't want to leave the couch," "my back hurts," "I'm tired." But I don't complain about bigger things so instead I wrote a supes dramatic blog post about it.
After I had a complete meltdown at practice last week my coach pointed out that I tend to focus on what's going badly at practice instead of what I'm doing well so I feel like I'm doing terribly while a coach might see something completely different. In the spirit of trying to focus more on the positive on ice today's blog post is also going to focus on the positive.
This morning we had a brutally long program on ice, I'll spare you the specifics because you don't care about that but we ended up being on the ice for over two hours. I will admit that I often have a lot of trouble psyching myself up for long programs but today ... I kind of killed it. I did more laps than I have in a single program in a long time and because I was thinking more "I can do this" instead of "OMG I'm dying so hard I'm not going to make it" I was able to do it and I was in a better mental space and not on the verge of tears for half the practice. It wasn't any easier than any other long practice but I was just in a better mental state to actually complete it which is somewhere I haven't been probably since before I started having all my issues with being healthy last season. Basically I'm just feeling pretty good about myself today and wanted to give me a pat on the back.